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Today I've dreamt about worms. The dream was that I've left in my floor's room something I should have throw out. Something like a plastic bag that for some reason my cousin had given me (Though I don't think there's any hidden meaning in that). In the bag there were worm eggs, and without my notice they hatched and spread throughout many places and things in my room. Everything that I shooked, larvae fell off. It was outside my control. The only thing I could do was to grab a pen and put above it. This would make the worm dry up, become white and die. The feeling was of that something as nasty as worms have spread extensively and that I did not know the extent. The feeling was that I did not know where I would find new worms. The feeling was that my negligence about something important contaminated all things, or at least a lot of it.
Having friends, girlfriends, parents - Everything like that burdens me and sucks my soul. I don't know if that is only felt by me or I am the only one that realizes that, or even more, if I'm specially sensitive to that. The constancy of the need of having to be something, someone, act that way, have an idea, speak something - evertyhing of that sort kills me. And in that way the phenomenon that defines my life takes place - a man that hides behind a flesh armor. I think I've never been sincere or transparent for a long, really long time. Sometimes I think I've never been sincere at all. Just a creature operating from inside of this fleshy robot. I've been always a double agent. I am all by by myself, the smallest interaction evokes me a life that I've never thought of living. A crazy man in his own world in his own head, one that would not have a moment of sadness if it didn't knew about the world outside of the four walls of his room
I've dreamt that I had a loose tooth in the back of my mouth. It really gave me the sensation that it would fall at any moment. I've interpreted this dream as it concerning not feeling safe, feeling like something in my life was loose, and that, as the tooth, this something could leave my life anytime soon
Me and my girlfriend decided to end our relationship. She wanted it more, I offered to stay and improve, as I always have. Three years and a half. I don't know if I can love anymore after that. Or if I want to. I'm done
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